Kim Blenkhorn
I read the words you wrote in tears
I felt your desperation
In every line a scream for help
A need for consolation
On every page after page after page
Words poured out like rain
Tell the tale of a of a broken heart
A Young lover lost in pain
You didn’t have the language then
You didn’t have the tools
You had no knowledge that youth does end
And romance made for fools
That life goes on and on and on
And time heals all that bends
And all the things you think you want
Become fair weather friends
Your words are so impish so frail and so cheap
But I mustn’t judge too harshly
ignorance is hidden tears you couldn’t weep,
beneath the flings and girlish hopes
Beneath love letters and little notes,
beneath the rhymes and muddled prose
remain a frozen fearful heart,
a little child; a forgotten youth
a tiny life, with unknown woes
and dread as deep as Christian truth,
perhaps love could begin to warm it
perhaps a kiss could melt the stone
a star struck gaze could but postpone it
I do not blame your need to own
I know you were lonely because I was you
I know you had loss,
And were confused
Oh how I ache for you, was there no one who could
All those years
Pining and pursuing searching for something good
I’m so sorry that was all you had
I’m so sorry you lived so sad
You were just a small child sorting through adult distress
Not knowing what questions to ask
Or what answers to accept
You did nothing wrong it wasn’t your burden or work
To mend and fix and care for everyone’s hurt
I know you were angry, I was angry too
I know you resented those who didn’t care for you
I know those years before memory were difficult to bear
I know you were searching for something
For which you were unprepared,
It’s okay that you were broken
It’s okay you were alone
There is so much life to live when you are grown
Some lives start out beautiful,
Some begin unkind,
But either way we have more ahead
Then what we leave behind
Life is not so easy,
The sun can burn us too
Our past regrets and memories
Are snags we’re working through
The heaviest days will end
The lightest moments drift by
The happiest details of both,
are written in the darkest times
Please remember when saddest
Remember when you’re aching too
Trials and tribulations
Find their greatest purpose in you
2023
my faith place 